Monday blues

Monday morning blues... and oh! It can't get bluer than this... late for everything and yet, nothing seems to be affecting my mood- perhaps cause it's already bad enough...? and for some unknown reason, it's just gotten worse since I've woken up. I mean, it's not that there's too much work and I'm dying under the pressure that's making it worse- (I'm here online writing aren't I, although there are too many things that need my immediate attention?), nor is it that I've fought with someone or had an argument over something that's made it this bad... No sireeee...! It's just gotten worse - that's it! No reason nothing...!


Aaaaaaaarrrggggghhhhh!! I probably shouldn't be publishing this lest people out there start thinking something's gone terribly wrong with me.. but Oh! for gods' sake! I can't be bothered right now with it!

First of!

I had almost forgotten that I had at some point in the past, started a blog, one that I never wrote anything on apart from a huge introduction for my profile. Whoever said "it's better late than never" must never have started something, only to drop it in an instant, and then to forget it and start again eons later.. the phrase doesn't really make me feel any less guilty.. I've always wanted to write - had wanted to be a journalist at one point, so when I decided to start blogging (look how far we've come in life!), I thought "this has to be my way of staying connected to writing", I actually just sat staring at my screen, blankly I might add, not being able to capture any words tumbling through my brains at a rate of god knows how many thoughts per second (was never good at physics or any of the sciences to confirm the exact rate)...


Anyway, so here I am trying to pen down randomly some of the thoughts that are going through my mind at this very moment. And I'm finding myself, unfortunately, at an almost similar situation - facing writing-phobia! Almost! Well let's see... it isn't exactly early morning, and I really must get going so that I can have a better beginning to the day, but honestly, although I did wake up earlier than usual (read usual as past three months), I haven't had a good morning- woke up completely disjointed and called a friend to enquire after his health - (he's caught the flu), only to have an extremely cryptic conversation which lasted not more than a couple of minutes having been told that he's "preoccupied" although he's doing "nothing"... so i got cheesed off early morning, while my intention was only to do some good by making someone feel cared for..


So here I am, trying to make my world seem a better place, by doing something that I had planned to do a long time ago and hoping it shall last for a longer time than the absence of it. I'm hoping there'll be someone to read this nonsense of mine and I admit I really doubt that whoever reads shall understand this vague bit of nonsense... But I can't think of anything else right now and even if I could, I have to leave since I'm pressed for time and have to rush to work...